I think its time for a change. on the other hand i hate change. some days having a split personality is a lot of fun. other days not so much.
i don't like change. almost every sunday for the past three years i've had cheese pizza from pizza hut for lunch. and before that for almost 2 years i had cheese pizza for lunch almost every other day. at least one room in my home has to have a red / maroon themed decor... has been this way for five-ish years. i've been wearing the same style make-up for goodness gracious i dont even know how long. i hate having my phone changed. i hate technology changes / upgrades.
on the other hand, i need change. i cut / dye / abuse and otherwise change my hair on a regular basis. i can't stick with one area of work / study too long before i go bonkers. The four years of under-grad were perfect for me in one way - every 3 months or so, there would be a whole new slew of things to study, new combination of people to interact with and all that. same goes for grad school - a change every 5 months or so. i stuck with my first job for little over a year and a half.
this job i've been with for over 3 years. its seriously, no kidding aside time to do away with it. ive been mentally arguing with myself for more than 6 months about this (see split personality is fun - never lonely, never lacking someone to talk to). and for the past couple of month i have mentally quit. and now i just need to follow that up with some real quitting.
scary thing is i have no idea what the hell i plan on doing with my life after i quit. plans B, C and D aside. Really im not sure what i want to do with my life. i guess thats the ever present dilemma that makes me want change.
i don't like change. almost every sunday for the past three years i've had cheese pizza from pizza hut for lunch. and before that for almost 2 years i had cheese pizza for lunch almost every other day. at least one room in my home has to have a red / maroon themed decor... has been this way for five-ish years. i've been wearing the same style make-up for goodness gracious i dont even know how long. i hate having my phone changed. i hate technology changes / upgrades.
on the other hand, i need change. i cut / dye / abuse and otherwise change my hair on a regular basis. i can't stick with one area of work / study too long before i go bonkers. The four years of under-grad were perfect for me in one way - every 3 months or so, there would be a whole new slew of things to study, new combination of people to interact with and all that. same goes for grad school - a change every 5 months or so. i stuck with my first job for little over a year and a half.
this job i've been with for over 3 years. its seriously, no kidding aside time to do away with it. ive been mentally arguing with myself for more than 6 months about this (see split personality is fun - never lonely, never lacking someone to talk to). and for the past couple of month i have mentally quit. and now i just need to follow that up with some real quitting.
scary thing is i have no idea what the hell i plan on doing with my life after i quit. plans B, C and D aside. Really im not sure what i want to do with my life. i guess thats the ever present dilemma that makes me want change.
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