my blogs are mostly ususally about negative things... i hate my job, life sucks, yadda yadda yadda. but life is not all bad. the gaps between the blogs are when life is good and happy and there is no need to vent.

its depressing to me that the frequency of my blogs is increasing

it is also depressing that when i am depressed i lose my appetite... that really sucks especially at a time when i am conciously tryign to increase my weight. cos lets face it... i am seriously underweight and am facing serious health probems which are not helped by this.

usually when i am upset and blog, words flow... the venting takes place. occasionally life is disturbing and confusing enough that i lose the words to express what i feel. that too is depressing.

blegh

i hate this helpless feeling. i hate the lack of control. i hate that you dont get what im going through. you know who you are.