work-a-holic??

as i look over my blog, i see that august was the month that things started "unravelling". when the job became ugh. well its gotten worse. this job is making me a work-a-holic. hah. me. workaholic. not possible you say? i submit to the jury the following evidence:

1. i don't seem to have much work to do today.... and that worries me

2. on monday i sent my work for the day to the boss in the afternoon and he responded before i left for the day with comments and i stayed late to re-do it.

3. i took 3 days of annual leave last week... the first day of leave was spent at work

4. while on leave i still worked from home

5. a year ago a doctor advised me to take time off work and focus on my health. on tuesday i got pretty much the same advise... to not let the stress of work get to me and focus on my health. apparently i've become anaemic and stress caused extra side-effects to meds on which i previously did not have side-effects

6. my immunity has died... i've had flu / virus / infections everything under the sun these past 3-4 months and been sick enough to need anti-biotics at least 3 times this winter.

7. ALSO been so sick that apperently i've taken more sick leave than annual leave... real sick leave and not the dake don't want to go to work sick.

8. the bank has a "mandatory leave" policy. we get 26 days of annual leave of which we "have" to take at least 15 to maintain the "work-life" balance. i took only 10 of the mandatory leave days last year.... hence the three days i took off last week, of which one although spent at work was still counted towards my leave count. but that's ok. i still didnt reach the 15 day minimum so 2 days got cut out of my leave balance anyways.

9. i've started having work dreams. you know those school nightmares you get as a kid... well now i've regularly started dreaming about work and what all needs to be done.

10. i've been dragged into office intrigues and politics.

11. i'm contemplating keeping extra meds / make-up / and other sundry stuff in my desk drawer, cos lets face it... i spend more awake time at work than i do at home.

12. i used to go around office and talk to people. now i'm mostly just at my desk. working. all the time. monday felt like it was a week long. tuesday was worse.

13. i dread waking up in the morning because i have to get to work. driving to work is torture and i'm already pissed off and in a bad mood. i leave work exhausted and frustrated.

14. i forget to eat breakfast most days.

15. i'm depressed.

16. for a few minutes yesterday i actually contemplated the thought of havign a baby because that would give me a legitimate excuse to quit

ok. so the conclusion is that i'm not really a work-a-holic, i just really really hate my job. but i going towards the path in life where my life is mostly about my work.