life is in a free fall these days... everything is up in the air and life needs decisions. life was supposed to be falling in place... instead a pandora's box of uncertainties has opened up in life. i feel like my life is on provisional status.

a friend said to me that i should not worry about my job and career... since i am a "rich" person i shouldnt care whether i have a job or not. well not everything in life is about money. some things are about peace of mind and satisfaction with life. i spend the majority of my time at work.... part of it is about money... and a larger part of it will be about money once im married. but a big part of it is about making a career and using my brain and more so.... making something of my life. i would never be satisfied with living at home. so yeah... im concerned when i almost lose my job. a little support would be nice.

another friend asked why am i so concerned about uncertainty at work... i have a man in my life.
knowing and loving abbas and having him in my life is the best thing in my life. but i have a mind and a life of my own. i have a family, and a career and other things in my life. i spend a significant amount of my life at work... if there is tension and pressure and at work... of course im going to be stressed about it. i live with my family and even if i didnt... i love my family. and if there are family issues... of course im going to be concerned. and through it all i have abbas to support me. and i love him for understanding my concerns and stresses and being there for me through all of it.

i love abbas for sitting with me in the hospital all morning. i love him for driving me home. i love him for grilling me for job interviews. i love him for waiting outside in the car. i love him for listening to all my complaints. i love him for being patient with all my issues and dramas. i love him for being such a strong believer in my talents. i even love him for his paranoia!