what is love. how do u know when u are in love? is it when u dont have to question it anymore. does it just strike u one day or does it creep up on u? do u always know without a doubt that u love this person. is it something that makes u want to shout to the world "i love u" or is it something more subtle. does love in that sense even exist or have we been corrupted by idiotic romantice movie notions about love?
a friend of mine wrote about love(sorry friend for copying this.... but i could never express it as well as u)
someone in your life who accepts you with all your wrongs and all your rights, all your shortcomings and all your virtues, your beauty and your ugliness, your talents and your inabilities, your peculiarities and your ordinariness..? A man who doesn’t judge you for who you are, who you want to be or who you were…A man who respects you...trusts you… doesn’t doubt you.
i know u and missy both have found someone who makes u feel that way. but i cant help but feel cynical about it. im not saying that i wont find someone to love and be happy with. but that kind of crazy oh so deep in love. i dont know about that. there are only so many times u can give your heart to someone and have enough left over to give to anyone else. and u never know if u do give ur heart to someone, if they will return it or just toss it out in the garbage like any other used bit of meat.
i guess im scared. of not finding "the one true love". of discovering that "the one true love" does not exist. of settling for someone who i dont really love and i settle just because im tired of waiting. and really really scared giving up on true love and settling and then having true love find me.
i dont know what im saying. its 1 am and im high on yummy chocolate cake and allergy medicine. its just greeaaaat how these random straange questions pop into my head at this time of night when there is no one to talk to. especially since im on the west coast and al my friends are on the east coast and even the night owls would be asleep by now. ah well. thats what blogs are for... random ramblings late at night. time to sleep.
2 comments:
Kitty... I guess sometimes I just 'idealize' the concept of love. I mean, sometimes, the perfection we see is just a consequence of the acceptance of immutable imperfections...
In my case, yes. Its been a long and arduous journey to Love... and I think just the fact that I went through all those heartbreaks made falling in love with Goatling easier... It made me SEE the little things - which I normally overlooked - It made me realize the importance of the seemingly insignificant things which actually matter the most. I guess thats where love happened.
You know, finding Love is not too hard. You just have to start noticing the little things. I am sure there's someone out there who probably doesnt fit the bigger picture of perfection... But on deeper inspection (nothing kinky about it:P) everything's perfect about him.
Sometimes you happen to like people you never realize you could like. You fall in love with a different person everytime! How that happens I dont know...but the key thing is ...you let it happen. Dont try too hard either way and dont settle for anything less than you know you deserve!
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