MSN

sigh msn is is not working for some bizarre reason. i feel cut off from the world. i feel as if my day is not complete if i havent logged on to msn at night..... even if i dont chat to anyone, i need to be logged on at least. this feeling never used to happen in lums. i guess cos i was living on campus and i had friends all around in the hostel.... if i felt like talking to someone or just being around people all i had to do was walk into someone's room or go to the common room or the lab. at home i feel cut off from the world. i guess its not so much talking to people, i mean if i want to do that ican call up a friend.... its more of just being around people i know and not necessarily talking.

the other day when i was in lahore, on sunday i was dead tired and i had my fill of socialising and talking to people, and i just wanted to be around friends. sometimes i love just sitting around with good friends and not having to talk.... just being comfortable and sitting quitely and listening to them talk. i guess thats just one way of unwinding after a long day. another is ignoring the world.... a total extreme. and when do i want to be around people and when do i want to be alone.... well thats all a question of the kinda mood im in.

and right now im in the mood to be around people and since im at home the only way i can do that is by logging on to msn.... WHICH IS NOT HAPPENING!!!!!!