im thinking those thoughts again. well its good that im thinking these thoughts now rather than a month ago which was a year after i thought those thoughts and went a little (ok a lot!) crazy. wow was that a convoluted sentence or what? well im thinking those thoughts, but i dont let those thoughts control me. i think the thoughts and the thoughts are just thoughts and the thoughts that are thunk are thunk and then they go away :) WOW, now that was one hell of a sentence.
whats different from a month and a year ago is that im not basing my happiness on the idea of love, or of loving one person, or as was the case...not loving someone. and what got me out of those thoughts and the disastrous consequences were my friends. it doesnt matter anymore wether i have one particular person to love or not. and it doesnt matter that occasionaly i get sad about it. because i have my friends. my close friends are the ones who literally saved my life. by being there for me and for caring about me and giving me a million lectures. i owe my life to all the friends who stood by me. and whenever im feeling down or lonely, all i need to do is think of those friends and what they mean to me.... and i feel better. i dont need one particular person to love, to know that i have love in my life. i have friends :)
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*muuuaaaaahhhhhhh*
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